i’d just like to say that christmas is a fun time of the year for me. im the type of kid that enjoys getting stupid little toys that frustrate me or entertain me for hours. i mean, i love all the other stuff too. i just enjoy things that are assumed to be ‘too young for me’ or something i would get bored with, or whatever. like i played with my 10 year old sister’s toys already [sorry bubba =P]. next year, santa will be my bestest friend if he puts some bubble wrap in my stocking! …just saying… i love that stuff!!!!!

bed time now… christmas stuff tomorrow… the only friend that im still in touch with from high school obviously wants nothing to do with me =/ why bother with people and try to be friends with them if they dont give a shit about you? what-the-fuck-ever im done with their bull shit. hell, i’ll go to mother fucking nevada! my moms friend wants to take me [its slightly creepy because hes like 26 or something and wants to take me because he likes me — in a non creepy way… its weird. good weird, but still weird] maybe i’ll go. he wants to teach me to snow board and ride snow mobile for real [not just around in circles in a field XD] *sigh* not sure if ima go… i want to, but its still really weird. i mean why not? butttttt yeahhh. i’ll have to think about it. and who knows, he’ll probably change his mind about taking me =/

anyway, im going to sleep. feeling like im worth nothing. and feeling like im special. i guess i feel like special nothing……. night